Miles
04-01-2005, 06:07 PM
I'm not sure why I'm saying this...And I'm not sure if it's even worth saying but I feel like I need to say this.
Have you ever had one of those days where everything is fine but you feel like you've done something wrong and although you're thinking happy thoughts...You feel sad?
I'm having one of those days.
I feel like I've done something awful...But I haven't...There's just something inside me, nagging at me and telling me that somewhere, I've messed up big time...I've tried to think about what it is but I haven't done anything. All I've done is stay inside today.
And I keep thinking about things that have made me laugh and things that have made me smile. That have made me so happy that I felt like telling the world just how wonderful I felt inside...But for some reason...Those thoughts are making me sad. I think I may know what the reason is but I'll keep it to myself...Though, it's not a horrible sad...Not the kind that makes me feel like everything is terrible...I just can't stop crying, I've spent the last two hours crying but I feel alright...Just sad but sort of happy at the same time. I feel light inside and warm. And my soul is calm.
Normally, I've got something on my mind and I'm stressing about something. But my mind is empty. I feel calm and at peace but there's a feeling inside of me that I just cannot explain. I'm not sure if it's a bad feeling or a good one, I can just feel something.
And it kind of scares me. And the only thing that I want right now...I can't have. But I feel like...Just getting up and walking somewhere, no one special, just walking as far as my legs can carry me.
I feel inspired in some unknown way and I want to do something but I'm not sure what. I've tried to write but nothing I say seems right and I try to draw but I can't seem to put an image down on paper.
I'm not sure why I said that...And I'm not really sure if anyone will understand but...If anyone knows what I mean...Do you know what it is? And why it happens?
Have you ever had one of those days where everything is fine but you feel like you've done something wrong and although you're thinking happy thoughts...You feel sad?
I'm having one of those days.
I feel like I've done something awful...But I haven't...There's just something inside me, nagging at me and telling me that somewhere, I've messed up big time...I've tried to think about what it is but I haven't done anything. All I've done is stay inside today.
And I keep thinking about things that have made me laugh and things that have made me smile. That have made me so happy that I felt like telling the world just how wonderful I felt inside...But for some reason...Those thoughts are making me sad. I think I may know what the reason is but I'll keep it to myself...Though, it's not a horrible sad...Not the kind that makes me feel like everything is terrible...I just can't stop crying, I've spent the last two hours crying but I feel alright...Just sad but sort of happy at the same time. I feel light inside and warm. And my soul is calm.
Normally, I've got something on my mind and I'm stressing about something. But my mind is empty. I feel calm and at peace but there's a feeling inside of me that I just cannot explain. I'm not sure if it's a bad feeling or a good one, I can just feel something.
And it kind of scares me. And the only thing that I want right now...I can't have. But I feel like...Just getting up and walking somewhere, no one special, just walking as far as my legs can carry me.
I feel inspired in some unknown way and I want to do something but I'm not sure what. I've tried to write but nothing I say seems right and I try to draw but I can't seem to put an image down on paper.
I'm not sure why I said that...And I'm not really sure if anyone will understand but...If anyone knows what I mean...Do you know what it is? And why it happens?